Today marks the beginning of journey for myself. There have been a lot of changes in who I am as a person over the last year. Depression will do that, if you let it, and I let it flatten me. In 2015, I realized that I was going to die if I didn’t seek help. This isn’t in any way metaphoric. I had given up and started attempting things I didn’t know I was capable of doing. I did seek help, though, and though it’s still a bumpy road sometimes, I know I’m far removed from the person prior.
Lately, negativity has tried to make a comeback into my life in a way that would sink me again if I gave into it, but thankfully, I’m viewing negativity as an observer, not as a participant. I have implemented mental safeguards to ensure that positivity wins, which is a wonderful feeling for me. Born into a negative household, positive experiences didn’t register as important as I grew up, which counseling and heavy reflection have shown me how damaging that is for a person. This thought may be considered common sense to most people, but it isn’t for a person like me. I don’t want to delve too far into my past, and all the f***ed up things I remember, but I will say this: I didn’t get to be happy for a long time. I had no safe place around me, and I depended heavily on the notion that I was the only one who would stand up, grow up, and perfect life. Guidance was not easy to come by, and most advice I received usually damaged me more that helped me. I am alive today, because I made a choice to grab on to the notion that things will get better, even if it takes a long time.
“We cannot live only for ourselves. A thousand fibers connect us with our fellow men; and among those fibers, as sympathetic threads, our actions run as causes, and they come back to us as effects.”
― Herman Melville
Today I’m making the move to start a project that’s been swirling around within me for a few years and I finally have the opportunity to make it a reality. It is going to be a really bumpy road at times, so I’ve devised a second project to help me during the low points. Today, I’m introducing “Fantastic Friday,” or to piggyback on Suzy, who writes the blog From the Fringe, a continuing list of things I’m happy and appreciative for.
I can’t do this alone, though. I need your help.
What I wish for is to start up a conversation. I want others to feel a safe space to tell me about their lives also. I want to help you, too. No one needs bear burdens alone, nor keep their happiness a secret. We need to celebrate and empathize with one another to make our web society more meaningful. I feel like connecting as blogging community is something I’ve always wanted, but have never been able to vocalize, and it would be a real honor to be able to get to know those who like to read my blog.
“We are like islands in the sea, separate on the surface but connected in the deep.”
― William James
I will be leaving my comments open for you to share your story, a free forum to be unabashedly you, and if private conversation is more meaningful for you, my email address is email@example.com. I check my inbox frequently, and I pride myself in responding to people quickly.
So comment below if you’re interested in starting a happiness journey with me.